from jac to my dearest nyc.

jac here (: i'm feeling a little lazy, and i know that probably a lot of people don't know my LJ, which is, by the way: cliquejean.livejournal.com

so. i'll just copy and paste what i want to say to you guys:

i'm finally feeling so alive after so so long!especially after today's practice, in the side audi door with the really good acoustics, i felt suddenly very emotional by the singing, like i've never sung before. and i could feel my eyes going "sparkly", as ms lim puts it. and occasionally i'd peek at yangzi or jiamin or yichan and just smile and bask in the happiness of singing.

SYF, really... is just simply SYF. i finally understood what's been troubling me these days. it's the conflict between my ideals and beliefs that's been irritating me. SYF is all about the challenge and somewhat a matter of pride and reputation. and me, being a person who has the greatest trouble putting down her pride, is going all out for this SYF. and i've become so obsessed with the Honours i've lost that emotion for singing, that raging desire to sing. to just, sing. but today i suddenly felt so open. unrestrained and somewhat free. even though i felt that my voice was a bit off today, and even though i still sighed exasperately when sop1s could not quite pitch to save their lives, i smiled in my heart. Cause i can feel that as a choir, we can see that we've gone a long way.

and when i look at jiamin yangzi yichan mel and myself, i also realise that we've gone a long way since handover. we may not be the perfect and best leaders, in fact we're still far from it. but at least we all know that now we have a common goal and purpose that's bonding us and forming a close pact between us. it's not the results that we'll attain on wednesday. it's the goal of becoming performers that have confidence, that have the passion to sing anything at anytime. to become a true nanyang chorister.

and i've never felt happier with choir.

thank you nyc, i love you!